I have had a dream that 12 years in, feels impossible at this point. It’s not to write a book or go skydiving. It’s not even my 100 lb. weight loss goal. It’s to be a runner.
Weighing 250+ lbs. at 5’4 and only ever walking for exercise and doing some high cardio workouts here and there makes being a runner seem impossible.
I think about this every so many days. This last year I did a Star Wars themed 5k. There’s just something about running that I think is amazing: the discipline, how your body feels, and the ability to MOVE. I just love it and have had this fantasy of being able to run longer and at faster times.
But my reality makes it seem impossible. Again, my weight plays the biggest part in having it feel hopeless, my lack of consistency in working out, and well…I guess I just don’t believe in myself very much.
I just turned 36 and have now acquired a nutritionist. I have the biggest support system surrounding me and have a beautiful park right near my home. I was thinking about all these factors yesterday and thought: “Jill, if you can’t and don’t do this now, with the complete ability to do this, you never will.”
I don’t want to go into my 40’s in 4 years and still be thinking about this dream. My body isn’t going to get any stronger with age. If I want to do this – I need to do it NOW.
But before I take steps and make a goal of becoming a RUNNER, I have to stop and ask myself if this is 1. Worth taking time to do 2. Glorifies the Lord?
When approaching dreams that aren’t “Gospel-Centered” we really do need to discern if it is God honoring to pursue them. Using my dream of being a runner, I’m going to pose the questions I have asked myself and I encourage you to use them too for your own dreams.
- Is this dream Godly or Worldly?
- Is this dream going to add to my character as a woman who serves Christ first?
- Will this dream interfere with my responsibilities as a wife, mother, homemaker, and disciple?
- Will this dream take away from other things I should be doing but aren’t?
- How can this hobby or dream be used to worship and praise the Lord?
- Am I hiding my talents by not pursuing this dream?
- Will others be impacted and benefit from this dream becoming a reality?
Using my dream as a runner – I first asked my husband and made sure he was on board and supported my dream. I then went through my daily schedule and saw that I do have the time to put into the discipline of training as a runner. I know this dream would glorify the Lord by taking care of my body, implementing discipline, and knowing that my greatest strength is CHRIST and not in myself. I truly know that even running would be done the best by continually making Christ the center of it.
So, do I want to do this? YES.
Does it feel impossible? YES.
Do I already feel like I am a failure? YES.
Am I embarrassed at how many times I have tried things and failed? YES!
Am I willing to give up? NO.
No, I am not willing to give up on this “over-a-decade” dream I have had. Again, I am getting older and I know if I don’t do this now – I never will.
Keeping Christ at the center of this is vital. We should be doing everything for the glory of God and keeping accountable to the Father, not allowing anything to become an idol or a distraction from what’s really important and matters: The Gospel, The Family, The Church.
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. – Colossians 3:17
So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. – 1 Corinthians 10:31
Do you have a dream you’ve been hanging onto but feels impossible? Are you eager to make it a reality? Have you prayed about it? Is there a way that pursuing it will honor the Lord?
As for my running, I am going to try and dig deep. Again, with having a nutritionist, my Christian Dr., my husband, my family and close friends, the time, the space, and the ability to do this – it’s now or I’ll never do it.
I don’t want to turn 40 and still be longing to be a runner. I have 4 years to make this happen…well, it’s not like 40 is the cut off but it’s definitely a milestone in my mind. I want to do this NOW.
May God receive all the glory. May I cling to Him on the harder days and praise/worship Him through the highs and lows of pursuing this hobby, this impossible dream of mine.